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What is a frenemy? It’s someone who is your “friend” and enemy all at the same time. Someone who acts like a friend to you, but is always jealous and has ulterior motives behind your back. Another name for a frenemy could be a “hater.”

I think I hit a brick wall with a lot of my so called friends last year. Fortunately, I have a handful of really good, genuine people whom I adore and trust. Unfortunately, there are a lot of acquaintances whom I have found out are just draining my energy and time. I consider myself a good judge of character and have made the distinction between true friends and acquaintances, but lately, I feel that some acquaintances have been drowning me with their sorrows and drama more so than before. Sometimes, I think I’m too nice to people. I’m a great listener and people feel comfortable to confide and talk to me about their thoughts and problems. That’s great, but lately, I feel drained from hearing the same stories over and over again, the same dramatic tale that ends the same and begins the same every week. Then I get mad at myself for allowing them to drain me of that energy and take advantage of my kindness. How do they take advantage of my kindness? Because they never ask about how I’m doing, how things are going? And they simply think that just because I don’t complain much about anything, that I must be on drugs or something because I just let everything roll off my shoulders? Not quite. Everyone has problems, but I choose to deal with it differently. Actually, I take it out in the gym and then move on. I just try to keep my sanity and stay positive. That’s the major difference between me and them.

I just had to vent about this because if I put it in writing, then it’ll help finalize a new resolution for me: Remain a better friend for my friends and get rid of as many superficial relationships as possible. I need to stop “being there” for people who wouldn’t return the same favor because they’re too self-centered to have any capacity of empathy. There! I said it! Whew…I actually feel a lot better now that I got that off my bosoms, lol.

Thanks for listening to me vent, I love you guys! I know a lot of you can relate because it’s human nature to come across these situations and even be guilty of doing it. I know I have and that’s why I want a change. I’m way to happy with my life right now to let anyone take that away from me., especially people who are just acquaintances.

Oh! I’m off to Vegas this week. It’s the AVN awards, too but I will be there modeling for another event. I wonder if you guys will be there visiting your favorite adult stars? If you see me, be sure to say hi. I’ll be the one taking pictures with every porn star with a size DDD or larger breasts! Haha! Just like a true Asian tourist!

XOXO

Jayd Lovely